On Life and Reality

I am coming to a realization that I'm not quite sure how to convey, but one that has the potential of changing a person's life. Nice and vague, hu? :) I guess it's this: I spend a lot of my life wishing for things I don't have, hoping for things that may never happen, longing for changes that my Father might never have meant for my life. I get upset with my children if they're not content with all their many toys and whine about that wonderful thing "if they would only" have. I tell them to straighten up if they're wishing for different circumstances when I know that what they have is really good for them. I know my Father is not mere human like me, but if so I expect he would be quite frustrated with me sometimes! There's so MUCH He's given me, why then am I still wishing? After my trip I was feeling like I was in a very dark place. Everything felt heavy and dark and hard. I wanted to tell God I just can't do what You're asking of me right now! It's too dark, how can I "walk"? And He seemed to tell me so plainly, "There's plenty of light, Child. I've supplied plenty of small gifts and bright spots of light on your path. Your only problem is this: you've put your hands over your eyes!! Remove your hands, look around. It's not really dark!" What a patient Father! If it would be me I'd say how many different ways do I have to tell you this?? But He just patiently keeps showing me the way...