Monday, November 24, 2014

Rest In Peace

It's one of those mornings when it feels impossible to start my day without writing. But when I sit down and try to string words together, it feels impossible to write.

Simply put, I am in Ohio; I want to be in Arkansas. There is someone staying at my house this week, there is Thanksgiving to plan for and more company coming this week; I want to be hugging my family members and being a part of the graveside service for my baby niece.

Saturday morning my brother, Mark, and I left for Arkansas with plans to meet our sister, Lisa, in Columbus. Before we reached Columbus, we hit dangerously icy roads! After sitting in stopped traffic and debating our options, we finally turned around and went back home without ever meeting up with each other. An hour after we were home, we got the call that baby Rosanna had passed away. There were too many conflicts in schedules to climb back in the car and try again, and it seemed clear that home was the place to be.....until yesterday morning, when it would have been easy to doubt the clearness....

So, here I am.

I have no tidy ending. No special inspirations or explanations or declarations. But I guess that's what Faith is, and without Faith it is impossible to please Him. So I guess He has me right where He wants me!

Rest In Peace Baby Rosanna.

4 comments:

Shannon said...

I'm sorry. So many hurts, so close together for your family. Prayers and hugs.

Tina said...

My sympathies to the Gingerich family; esp to Carls. What heartbreak!!
I am sorry it didn't work out for you to be there for the funeral- that was frustrating I'm sure. God cares about all this tho.

Rosita said...

So sorry for your loss.

Ellie said...

"Tears are the telescope by which we see far into heaven." I am so sorry for your loss. We have a daughter in heaven too.(She was stillborn.) Perhaps she has met your niece, and given her a tour of heaven...